Mommy work is so hard but wouldn't trade it for the world

Brie's latest accomplisments...
my 6mos 1 wk old is now getting on her hands & knees. Sleeping is becoming a little more difficult for her but she's still sleeping much better than her sister ever did. She has learned how to turn on her bird & butterfly mobile after I showed her. I was amazed to watch her turn it on & off as she was in her crib. Then today I heard the music coming through the monitor the other day. She had a good long dry spell today where we even caught her pees with ECing- poos still catching those. Teething- still teething no teeth in yet. She's been pre-teething since 3mos, I would have thought a couple would have broken through by now.

Alyssa & I had a big go around this evening. She's been waking really early like 5am. She wants to climb into bed with mommy. Then she's flip flopping all around. She gets outta bed at night telling me she's scared. Maybe she is a bit but really I think it's an excuse. She wants to be with mommy & that's the main reason. So I started taking one of her dolls every time she got outta bed. That was a good idea for about 2 days then she started coming down stairs & handing me a doll as she asked what ever she wanted. Tonight I took all the dolls. Then she started crying. I don't wanna hear it but told her she can cry as long as she did it behind closed doors. That lead to screaming, banging & kicking the door. Door is coming off next. I also told her today since she's been getting outta bed so early int he AM. That she can do it but it's not fair to mommy. So for every minute she gets outta bed b4 7a, she owes me in her room in the afternoon when Brie takes her nap. If we are out running in the afternoon she goes to bed that amount of time earlier. This is my plan for nights & I'm praying we can turn the corner.

She's testing me all day long & I feel like it's a constant battle. I'm feeling like she's split personality one minute she tells me she loves me & the next she tells me I'm the meanest mommy in the world.

Dinner is back to being a battle. We had about a 6mos reprieve on that one. She doesn't have to eat but she needs to try everything. Then I require her to tell me no thank you. I'm no longer making her anything else (ie cereal or a salad like I did b4). It's her choice to eat or not to eat. She must sit at the table with me & Brie. However one day this week she screamed bloody murder about the food she had before her & I put her on the steps for a time out & that's where she stayed til I finsihed eating. I'm tired of listening to her screams & whines.

Alyssa is a bright, loving, sensitive girl just very head strong. I want to bring her up right now & her not be a brat as she becomes older & we have bigger issues.

Brie is easy for me. Her needs are basic & she's a happy child. Alyssa is just in a very trying time right now.

This mommy work is very hard but I wouldn't trade it for the world.